Treatment Cycle 4 - Day 12

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Yesterday I forgot for a while that I have cancer. We are far from home in Vancouver, and the day was busy with the small tasks and pleasures of baby care (diapers, bottles, songs, naps, burps, toys), as well as a drive through the beautiful city and a visit to the aquarium. It wasn't until dinner that my cancer was mentioned in passing, and for a minute I didn't recognize what it meant. For a minute that word, cancer, floated in the air before my eyes as something completely unrelated to myself. Then it shifted into focus and became my reality once again.

The ability to forget is a luxury for someone in cancer treatment - I am extremely lucky that my body is allowing me that luxury. But it also made me think - someday, maybe a year from now, or two or three, there will come a day when I spend more of my day not thinking about cancer than thinking about it. And someday after that, perhaps I will forget for days or weeks or months at a time, and all this will be just a distant memory.

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